It would be too easy if we could do the same with our minds and lives; delete, escape button, refresh, ctrl C, ctrl V and all the rest. Too easy. Too perfectionist. Instead of having those magic buttons and commands we have a magic brain which is connected not to the world wide web but to the wonderful wide world. You knowingly or unknowingly tap commands into the real www and whether you want it or not, life happens.
Shit happens too. The movie I was playing in my mind did not last long unfortunately or fortunately. Let us stay positive say the teachers! Keep patience says someone. You’ll find your path says the other. Love life says the book while in the inside, you cry…
Finally you learn to get over the fact that maybe this dream job you had was not meant to be lived longer. At the end of the day to be fair to yourself, you did complete that dream. You achieved it. You got to live it. The dream didn’t remain a dream. You actually got into the uniform, walked kilometers on ground and in the air in those shoes, greeted friends and colleagues, and came back fully alive and healthy! Beautiful!
But what now? What is the next step? Ah… This question never leaves anyone, does it? At least we all connect and understand each other on that level. The next step needs to be taken, that we know!
My next step…. was alongside an adventurous one. I met someone named Danger (friends and family call him so). He is teaching me to face my fear which happens to be in myself, or beziehungsweise is myself. I thought I had completed part of this ‘process ‘ or ‘progress’ which is the one of discovering oneself. It is funny, but during several stages of life I had that thought: “Finally, I am bloo-oou-ming, it is now, it is happening!!”
But you are a tree see. And you never stop blooming. The seasons will come and go, the cycles of life will go on repeating and happening and you will always learn how to bloom again, and again aaaand again! Some seasons will be rougher and you will loose branches. When spring comes again you won’t be as green as last year. But you will grow leaves nevertheless, bloom again and summer will do you good. The bees will make sure of it. You will find joy again in the bright colours of your neighbour flowers. You will enjoy all that warmth and energy from the sun.
Danger helped me open my wings. The dodo will fly no matter how! I nested my weaker wings under his stronger wings and we flew to the jungle. We flew to bigger trees and breathed in energy from this wonderful wide world.
I lived each and every moment. I grew feathers of completely different colours. We both grew new feathers. We now share them.
Until next time!